Monthly Archives: August 2009


I hereby dedicate this monument to nothing,
and the nothing that happened here for thousands of years
before the construction of this great stone, upon which
the aforementioned monument is now being placed.

Furthermore, I would like to have recorded that I,
in the interests of nothing, am donating all
of my future time and resources to aid nothing,
so that if nothing is accomplished, it will be known.

Furtherfurthermore, today, August the 25th,
shall from henceforth be venerated in this place as
Nothing Day, and for generations to come will still
be celebrated for no particular reason.

Once forgotten, a committee will restore this stone,
adding carefully inscribed dedications to us.

The response to nothing has been overwhelming, though
no monument can bring back what has not been lost here.

Summer Was Never Our Season

Summer was never our season, or so
it seems (excepting Scarborough beaches,
crossing bridges by Five, colorful eyes,
those few sticky nights we still hold on to):
first mute, then blind, now trapped in different times,
the heat has always been kept down. But that
sensation—waking beside you, the cat
spitting allergens at me, purring, “Mine!”
as she nuzzled your chest—was still worth it.
If I could I’d have given you sunlight
but the moon waged war with us, and our fights
were never known for being temperate,
like the summers we keep wasting away
or nights spent wishing for one more day.


Phobos and Deimos were raised this way, old
at the time. You were ancient at birth, Virginia,
what could they teach you? That helium

is the second most abundant element
in the universe? That you were the first real child
born in the Americas? The mixed births weren’t

recorded; the Spaniards took back only their gold
trinkets, syphilis, other souvenirs. Hydrogen,
combustible, unstable. Helium is inert

and unreactive, safe from the elements
in its tiny village. Both of you, alpha particles,
undiscovered at the time, and Phobos

in his orbit, looking down on you. I would have
stayed, Virginia. Did they give you a vote, at two?
I would have stayed, and carved your name instead,

and our descendents, daughters and daughters
down the line, might have lived to cast their ballots,
decades after Oceania, once the Croatan were dead.

A Rose for Emily p2

Ah, yes. “Well, Shit.” I suppose an epigraph—or should that be an epitaph?—will suffice, emblazoned on the archway in golden majuscules. None of this sans-serif nonsense, only the most majestic and decorative lettering imaginable for to immortalize the very first words I spoke, excepting the standard marching orders given by an invading general mid-invasion, when I first stepped foot in this castle. Can you imagine if it were a marching order? Granted, it would be hilarious for a brief and fleeting moment but if ever there were a way to make a bad day worse, that would be it, and I believe it goes without saying that that day could not have possibly sunk any lower than it already had by the time I arrived. Only, it was then that I arrived, so perhaps I’m wrong on that.

If memory serves—and after the bottle of mead I drank this morning to work of the courage to write this in the first place, it could go either way—it happened in the old King’s private court, a room that we’ve since boarded up. I’d have allocated the funds at some point to preserve it as a memorial to the Old Guard, to honor the dead but, as we’ve well established, I’m a selfish prick, and therefore such a rational and sympathetic act is well beyond my capabilities. Of course, even if I weren’t such a prick as I am (but I am), the cost of repair and restoration would have been astronomical. Keep that in mind in case this gives you an big ideas (and also be sure to credit any big ideas to me. I’ll be watching).

When I first stepped foot in that room, I counted no more than six square feet of dry ground left unscathed by the tidal wave of blood that seemed to wash across the floor, seeping into the dirt between the tiles, as if the earth beneath them were a Sham-WOW. God, I had never seen so much blood and death concentrated in such a small space before. Everyone you had everyone known or loved—everyone they had ever known or loved, as far as I could tell—their fresh corpses littered the ground, fresh with the stench of dying. I remember all the shiny wounds, the wide open eyes that oozed blood and brain from the corners like cataracts from Hell. What I later learned was poison left a thin, shimmering layer on every blade, left all who felt its puncture choking in their own vomit and coughing up their withered, decaying organs. I’d dare say that even the deepest stab wounds and severed limbs went unnoticed by the victims as that potion took its toll. I remember a velvet curtain that adorned the King’s proscenium. The first thing that sprung to mind when I observed its rich majestic coloring would have been blood red, if I hadn’t noticed the rust brown stain of actual blood that dyed its skirt. I remember the cloud of dust that engulfed the room when that curtain finally collapsed from the weight of all the blood it had absorbed, and how it sifted through the air so unsettled.

Fuck this.

Seriously?  I just poured my whole self into a long-ass post and WordPress fucking ate it when I pressed preview.

Fuck this, WordPress.  And fuck you.  You can suck my spiky knob and choke on it, you cunting slut.

3114 BC, Again

Today is the day that time was born, and
doing time as well. From this moment on,
all of achievement will be reachieved.
Everything that was recorded once
will happen again, and all the records
previously held will be broken; such
is the nature of time. Today is the day
from which we will count forward, mark progress,
refer to when we say, “Those were the days.”
This is the day, time is beginning here.
And for all the mistakes, crimes, indecent
acts, destructive impulses, deceptions,
cruel things inherent in the world before,
you will be forgiven, until the day
when your act is repeated, for this time
is the same time, unending, and the things
that we marveled at in the before-time
will be repeated, and the things that we
suffered will be resuffered. Such
remains the cycle of our long and weary years.

A Rose For Emily p1

For Harry (assuming this finds you first):

Let me begin by saying that yes, I do realize that I’m kind of a prick. The kind of prick that rather enjoys fornicating with ethereal beings, I’m afraid to admit, but a prick such as that is a prick nonetheless. And while I had originally intended to address this at a later point, I feel it is important for me to reiterate these two things. One, it is not necrophelia, if for no other reason than the uninvolvement of a corpse, and two, don’t knock it until you try it. Moving on. As I’ve replayed the events of the past several months over and over again in my head, the actions in which I am about to partake have appeared to me, after careful consideration and several chalices of mead, as the only (vaguely) rational cure for the clusterfuck predicament in which we have found ourselves to be so entangled. Still, I am determined to commit this to paper before I fully execute this Final Solution (catchy name, is it not?), in hopes that perhaps some brilliant new clarity will awaken within me before that threshold is crossed and we’ve forfeit all opportunity to fall back.

That, or the more likely scenario, whereupon I finally realize that I am hardly more than a coward myself, and that to commit this whole grand narrative to paper is little more than a sad attempt to put off the inevitable; as I’m sure you’ve caught on by now, such careful and cautious decision making as this is hardly in character for a impetuous, headstrong (but goddamn handsome) prick such as myself. Rather, procrastination has often presented itself as one of my finer traits; even my destiny seems to carry it in great quantities and right along with that digression have gone all of my noble delusions of do-goodery.

Well, shit. So much for that fantasy.

Speaking of—of, “Well, Shit,” that is—I believe that phrase holds a wonderful place of importance in the history of my reign, as well as that of our relationship. So much so that perhaps before I go I shall declare a holiday of some sort in its honor. “National ‘Well, Shit,’ Day.’ Has a swell ring to it, does it not? Granted, there’s a bit much punctuation when you spell it out like that, and unfortunately, I’ve always felt that holidays should possess names that are crisp and succinct, and while I suppose I could simply declare it “Shit Day,” I fear that it lacks the same punch. And then of course the history books, presupposing they recall anything relating to my brief tenure on the throne, will dub me with some delightfully ridiculous nickname such as, “Lord Aleksander, the Shitheaded.”

On second thought, it would perhaps be desirable to go down in history as The Shitheaded rather than The Whiney Ghostfucker.

On third thought, perhaps I win either way. Where were we?